"The Trouble Is I'm Tired"
Be Gentle With Me - The Boy Least Likely To
Generally, marionettes creep me out, but I've loved this song for ages... anyway...
Did you listen to the lyrics? This is tonight's theme song ("please be gentle with me..."). Tonight has been wicked depressing ("before I just fizzle out and die"). Two of my friends attacked me with angry rants about their lives, and then another friend aimed a magnifying glass on my faults ("I'm happy because I'm stupid"). Now I feel completely empty, picked apart and genuinely horrified at the state of my life and the world in general ("my heart gets broken so easily"). Jeez. I hope they feel better for their rants, because I feel like crap. ("I guess I've always needed to be needed by someone")... you see where this is going. ... but really I'm just a really cute stuffed animal... or something ;)
So the new plan for tonight is to get TOTALLY wasted and stay up till all hours watching my Sesame Street DVDs. Haha. Maybe not. I watched the first one earlier today and I was practically sedated by the end of it. It's weird how those pleasant childhood things can just instantly calm me down. Definitely time to put on the Sesame Street and turn off the phone.
The Psychiatrist is OUT!
~g~